Back to Blogging (3 Month Hiatus)

I am back to blogging!

So those of you who may remember me, I am a lifestyle blogger that aspires to help many people, and I wanted to make this blog my whole life. Unfortunately, it didn’t pay the bills, and I was discouraged from the success of this blog because I was focused on surviving, rather than making this blog a creative space that will be able to help others.

After a three month hiatus, I got a job (operations manager – for right now I have just been content creating a website for a startup company, which has been amazing because the only real experience I have in that area is building this blog and website), My mental health has increased and I have learned to manage myself rather than change myself (another blog to come) and I learned a lot about what is important in creating a safe and happy space for your mental health.

That being said, my website is finally up, new and improved with a different look, and I am no longer scared of color! Yes, I know that sounds weird. I am no longer obsessing over niche but sharing overall advice that I have learned over time, and I can do it freely because I am financially supporting myself at the same time.

If you are seeing this post and you’re like, who is this random person, I don’t know when I followed them. I ask that you give me another chance, because I have so much to share, and if you need encouragement and guidance, this blog is made for you. I know my blog is called the feminine pages, but if you are a guy. These can be applicable to you too!

This is Liz Masu, Season 2.

Celebrating Two Months of Intentional Blogging!

I have been blogging for two months straight and it is starting to feel like a habit rather than a goal I need to push myself towards.

I do believe that each moment of your journey is a single moment and a moment to remember, but it is not a permanent moment. The biggest changes in anything come from consistency, no matter how you feel.

At two months of intentional blogging, I have 33 WordPress followers and 29 Social Media Followers, which gives me a total of 62 followers. Which is pretty crazy.

It is pretty crazy to think that 62 people out there want to support me and keep reading my content.

So to those 62 people, thank you so much for following me, it means so much to me and I hope I help with the things I share in my blog! Two months felt a lot longer than it sounds. I have 10 months left to go to show myself that I have not given up.

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As I Get Older, I just don’t care anymore – Personal Blog – Almost 30

This is not going to be a full on advice blog you could probably get something out of. But I just wanted to share my two cents this morning about how I have been feeling lately.

I am almost 30 years old. I am going to turn 28 in April, which is kind of crazy to me because I feel like I should be 21 right now. Regardless, I am getting older and time is not slowing down. It is only getting faster and it will leave me in the dust whether I am ready or not.

Yes, I grow over time, things happen in life. So many things will happen in your life that you don’t expect. If your life is boring, my dear, you are a lucky one. I wish I could go back and make my life boring. Boring is safe, boring means that you can choose what gives you excitement and life.

Whole paragraph of what I am tired about (You can skip this) – I am so tired of feeling anxiety, being depressed, caring about what everyone thinks of me, caring about fitting their rules of what they think is right or not, being everything for everyone and still not being enough at the same time, male species feeling entitled to women’s thoughts and body, having to beg for everyone’s approval, being angry, upset, arguing, and standing up for myself, having to compete with other people or deal with people trying to pry at me. I don’t care for it. It is exhausting.

People are relentless. I don’t know where they get this energy to attack other people. Insecurity gives people a lot of drive.

This does not necessarily mean that I hate everyone and hate people and hate life. I mean, sometimes I do, but that is also tiring as well.

But, it just means at 28, I just want to live a peaceful life, and I know I have a whole long way to live. It means I am just tired of the pettiness of the world and I just need to move on from it. More people than you know, feel entitled for you to live your life revolved around them and it is exhausting.

So I will.

Somehow I will learn how to live to not care anymore. Live to be a lot freer. I don’t know if this is too vulnerable. Almost hypocritical because I give mental health advice.

Reality: But honestly, this is the reality of it. Your mental health will go up and down and this entire life is just us having to deal with it and get through it. Some days, you will be on top of the world, and some you won’t.

Overtime, you will get better and better and the dark moments of your life won’t be that dark anymore. But you have to go through the ups and downs as you heal.

If you are like this, let’s conquer this together. It won’t be easy, but it will be a journey and a support group. I don’t know if this helps anyone, but, thanks for reading!

My daily Gym Routine so far // WITH pictures from Planet Fitness

So this New Years I made a resolution to work out consistently.

Honestly, every year I make some kind of resolution and by December, I realized how December came so fast before I knew it, and I always catch myself wondering, “what if I was consistent?” “What would my creative ventures look like? What would my body look like?”

I always stop within a month. Too short to find out. I always quit while I am ahead.

It is 2022 and I am tired of wondering what if I didn’t stop.

I will admit, it helps that I have a friend going with me, with a flexible schedule as well, but I don’t want to ask myself that question anymore. I need a change.

So start small, take it step by step. Here is my gym routine!

My routine

So I go to planet fitness which is about $10 a month. So if you don’t go to the gym for a year, it’s like taking a day or two off of work (depending how low your wage is) at the MAX. It doesn’t hurt your wallet over a year if you truly just never go.

No I am not promoted by Planet Fitness (but at this point, I should be 😂 this is my ✨manifestation✨.

I did the ten dollar one because I truly don’t use the amenities and I don’t really have a need to access the other gyms. And I am on a budget right now anyways.

When me and my friend go to the gym, the first thing we do is do 20 minutes of cardio.

1. 20 min of cardio

Elliptical

I actually did the bike today but I forgot to take a picture of myself and the elliptical was actually less crowded.

So here are the cardio options I do.

– elliptical

– treadmill

– stairs

– bike

Then I am in charge of picking two machines.

2. Machines

Ab machine

First, I did this new ab machine where you crunch your entire body. It was serious. I did 3 reps of 10 crunches.

Well, I think I did. It’s good going to the gym with a friend because you get caught up in conversation and don’t realize your working out.

Then I did a butt machine…

Butt machine

Don’t know what it’s called… but it works out your butt. And it does a really good job at it too. I just basically do 3 reps of 10 of everything. It’s my go to.

3. 15-20 minutes of Orange Theory Workout

Lastly, my friend picks out a workout from Orange Theory. Depending on what we want to work out that day. It usually gives us the most full body workout.

Orange theory workout app

The Orange Theory app is serious. It has different sets of exercises for around five minutes each. A warm up, and the exercises get harder and harder each set of exercises.

And on the side, it has this section where it tracks your heart rate and how hard your body works. And if you hit the orange section, you reach a point where your body is still burning calories after your workout.

It comes with a band that you put near your elbow to track your heart beat.

And this band is what connects to your app to track your progress.

You are technically supposed to go to their gym and do it, but she quit. But still uses the app and the band and it’s a great concept and motivator for working out!

Our mat set up for free body section

I don’t have it, but my friend uses it and has been a great motivator! And this app goes by quickly!

Not sure what this exercise is called
Trusty water bottle. Bag is from Target

It’s been a good routine. We have been tackling it together and it honestly has been working out.

Honestly, going to the gym with my friend mainly worked out because we both have flexible lives, so your going to have to find a motivated friend that also has a similar schedule as you.

Anyways, that is my gym life for now! I should take a before picture…

Keep going at it! You can do it. If you can physically get up and get yourself to the gym, even though your discouraged. Do it anyways. It’ll take a while to see results so be consistent!

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How My Valentines Day Went (COLOR ME MINE + KOREAN FOOD + almost stranded on the highway!)

Today (which is going to be considered yesterday after I post this) is Valentine’s Day, and my husband and I got to enjoy the whole day together!

It made me so happy because I haven’t gotten to spend time with my husband in a long time and I got to enjoy a new activity.

So here is how our day went!

This is my outfit. I got the dress from Marshalls because I hated the dress I got from Amazon. It was too big and too late to get a new one. So I went to Marshall’s to find something.

I tried to style it in different ways. Which one do you like the best?

Option 1
Option 2
Option 3

So, I went with option 2, but which one was your favorite?

First we went to Color Me Mine

Which is a cute place where you can paint pottery, and then in two weeks, you can come back and pick up your pottery after they heated it up in the kiln.

It was $8 per person + however much the pottery you picked out was. I picked out a cute pencil holder to put on my office desk as I hustle, and my husband picked a funny cup with a cookie holder!

Before
After painting it

I won’t see the final result until two weeks later but I think it’s going to be a lot darker.

And this is my husbands cup

Husbands cup

I think it is a little funny and scary at the same time. I’m not sure why he chose those colors. There was a literal Cookie Monster example he could’ve followed. But it’s funny and we love it.

Then after that, we decided to spontaneously get Korean food that was an hour away. It was freezing outside but it has been a while since we did something spontaneous.

Dduk ramen
Rice and bulgogi
Ddukbuki

And alas, on our way HOME, we had no gas. Driving on the highway. I am always prepared and so I kinda felt like throwing up because I didn’t want to be in the middle of the highway stranded.

Our gas mileage was not even showing

But we made it. Thank goodness. At that was our eventful Valentine’s Day!

We are going to watch crazy rich Asians to close our night but I had a fun time. It was well needed for us.

Crazy rich Asians movie

Make sure to prioritize time with your significant other. It’s important to keep the relationship alive.

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How I have been feeling lately

I know I have ADHD, but right now I don’t have the money to get tested for anything else. But sometimes I wonder if I have bipolar disorder or something because I get depressed at the most random times.

Yes, I am depressed and sad for no reason. There was nothing that triggered my depression, and I am really tired all the time, but my motivation to get up is all of my dreams I am working for.

Whether or not I am writing short easy posts or posting them late, for some reason, I am determined to write everyday with no days off.

But when people pursue their dreams, they aren’t hustling and happy all the times. I am not even wishing and hoping. I am just sad for some reason.

I have an interview in ten minutes, and I’m not even dressed for it, I need to use the bathroom, and I am using the time to write this blog. And ironically, their motto is “being early is on time and being on time is late”.

But I think it does help listening to my own advice when it comes to understanding that feelings or only feelings. If I determine my actions on my feelings, I would never grow and never get anything accomplished, honestly.

So here I am, writing a blog. I know it isn’t informational to you or helpful, and it is mainly personal, but, it is what I am writing today.

If you did read through this, thank you. I appreciate it a lot.

A day in the life of a freelancer aspiring their dreams

Today, was not a good day.

It is 7:41 pm, and I have scheduled 2 blogs to write for my blog, and I have to manage a social media account. I have not started because I quite frankly don’t feel like it.

Sometimes I don’t feel like it because I question if it is even worth it. I neglect to see my work, and I am home all day, which may make me tired. I am not even sure.

I am not sure how I was able to get so much done in an 8 hour day. Then when I started working from home. How in the hell is it harder to stay awake? I just want to take a nap. Some days I just have no motivation, and some days, I should have went to the library.

When you are hustling for your dreams, you are not always going to be in the hustle mode, where you work all night, for your dreams to come true. You are going to grudgingly keep working even when you are too tired, because you don’t want to miss one day.

Especially, because I refuse to go back to doing nothing because I can’t get a job, or hating my life, because I hate the job that I am doing.

I make very little money, but I am very happy with my daily life right now.

I know I have written about this before, but today is one of those days that I just feel blocked. I don’t know what to write about, I don’t feel inspired. I don’t feel like my work is showing any results. I am discouraged.

But I love doing this too much to just stop now.

I bought a ring light. It’s coming tomorrow. I am pretty excited to start taking pictures of the products I use, or the outfits that I match. I am thinking about posting videos on this blog too. We will see how it goes though.

I don’t know. This blog was pretty pointless honestly. It is just me venting out my feelings and frustrations. These are the days where people tend to just quit, but I guess I have done so many hustles to know that today is just a feeling. But I will regret the lack of consistency if I listen to those feelings.

The cover photo is an actual picture of me. Not glamorous. I haven’t done my makeup in days. My hair is frizzy, and I am tired. Not tired enough for a nap, but too tired to be motivated for anything.

I don’t know what this blog is. It is just a bunch of mind dump. Thanks for reading.

Get to Know Me

I have been posting on this platform for maybe a month now, and realized that my followers don’t really even know me.

First of all, I would like to thank all my followers for following me, finding my content valuable in one way or another. I would love for you to leave comments so I can find out what you need and I can write more for what my followers need!

My name is Liz, and I have done the whole college thing, 9 to 5 job, and I have done a million side hustles. I also have an Etsy shop of digital ADHD planners (NotedbyLiz).

I have hated the 9 to 5 job. I don’t ever want to work and stress out for someone else, and I would rather work longer days and stress out for myself.

That being said, holy moly. I am living my dream, not making money off of it, but hustling for it. At the end of the day I am really happy with the work that I produce, and I am lucky to have a supportive husband that made it possible for me to have the luxury of not making money for the time being.

As you can see, I love talking about mental health, and I am so passionate about it, and I know many other people are too.

To me, I have just really went through the thick of it alone, and I really wish I had someone to guide me. Everything that I thought was impossible and not for me, truly became possible.

I have pushed through and conquered through depression, social anxiety, anxiety, my purpose in life, loneliness, opinions of others. If I knew someone who went through it alone and got out on the other side, I would have had more hope, and that is what I wanted to be for other people. I am happier than ever.

I love fashion and beauty. I hated that every 9 to 5 job would stifle my creativity in my outfits. Why do I have to be boring to be professional? The work is still being done, my body is still covered and presentable. It’s just a little more fun!

So that is why I created this blog!

I truly find kindness and unconditional love so important in life, and being the best, kindest, most loving person, regardless of the world around you, because it is pretty dark.

So if you follow along, I thank you so much, I hope to bring life, love, and good advice.

Sincerely,

Liz

DISNEY Encanto – How I see myself in the movie

There is a good chance you have already watched Encanto. Whether your kids made you watch it, or you, yourself have gotten addicted already. In my case, I have already watched it nine times. I love this movie, I loved interpreting every trauma of each kid and the gift they had. I would cry every time in the songs and I was not quite sure why.

Yes, I do resonate most with Isabella, in the sense of having to look perfect all the time and be perfect. If I did not have the perfect personality, or poise, or if there was something remotely wrong with me that someone decided was wrong? People would always talk about how I wasn’t enough. People in the same community wouldn’t even try to be friend with me because they heard other people’s judgements of me, so they kept away.

This was hard because I was an introvert. I had social anxiety. It was hard enough already to even make friends. I am not sure why this always happens though. I am not sure what it was about me. I felt like I had a pure genuine heart, I have watched Disney and stuck with just Disney and I am in my late twenties. I can’t watch the villain scenes of movies because I just don’t like the evil vibe of it. And it is literally just Disney.

It’s not even one community, I would move from community to community just because life happens, and the same thing would happen. It would be so frustrating for me. People would have so much to say about me, even when I have done or said nothing to them.

And I think that is why I resonate with Maribel so much in this movie. Maribel only had good intentions, she only wanted to be loved and only wanted to be cared for. For some reason, everyone had something bad to say. Just like they had something bad to say about Bruno, when all he wanted was to love his family.

At the end of the movie, after she went through so much, her empathy and love came out on the other side, and finally revealed who she truly was and people finally saw her for her. After all the hatred and the confusion, her true self finally gets to come out.

I probably will talk about how much I changed because I don’t think anyone will know how much I went through to get to this point. How I had no guidance and how I had to figure it out by myself, and I did. I didn’t know how to get where I am at now, but I did. And I had to go through a lot of uncomfortable moments to get here. I powered through panic attacks, so many tears, so many suicidal thoughts, so many toxic relationships and friends.

I don’t think anyone will ever be as proud of me as I am of myself. But I am thankful that some people see a little bit of it. Just like the Madrigals saw Maribels strength and change. That this whole time, Maribel stood aside everyone else’s amazing gifts, and they didn’t recognize what she had to offer until at the end of the movie. I finally got to a point in my life where people are starting to see me for me.

Some of you may be at the beginning of your story or the middle of your story. I don’t know what encouraged me to keep going even though I never saw the results, but keep going. Keep being your best and kindest self. Just powerful through the hatred and judgement and show more love to fight against it. Don’t prove them wrong, prove to yourself who you truly are.

I know that panic attack seems to always creep up when you think your done, I know that social anxiety is searing through your heart as you are just trying to have fun, I know that insecurity is wearing you out and making you so physically and mentally tired. But keep working on yourself. I truly didn’t think there was another side to life, but there really is. And its the side where you can live free no matter what storm is happening in your life.

I shoveled through so much fear, insecurity, anxiety. I stood tall in my belief of kindness and unconditional love and forgiveness. I cried a LOT. I racked my brain daily. I went to therapy. I screamed at the top of my lungs in the car just to get by. Just to make it to the end of the day. I would almost get in car accidents because I was having a panic attack while driving because I was anticipating going to church and seeing people. I analyzed people and their interactions, I practiced it. I analyzed peoples responses and behaviors and analyzed my own to see what I may be doing wrong. I felt like I was going crazy for years. And slowly, it just got better and better.

It is easy to hate other people, it is easy to show them disrespect. It is harder to hold your head up and show kindness to those who don’t deserve it. You are who you choose to be during the hardest times. Thats when you know who you are.

Walk straight through that storm. Feel all those emotions. Do the best you can, because your best is enough.

My dear, if nobody told you yet. You really can do it. I can tell you first hand, there is another side.

New Year Goals I am Committing to 2022

I feel like if you are in your 20’s, you were part of that generation where you went to school, you went to college like you were told, and then now you are in the working world and now hate your job. Maybe not, maybe you always knew what you wanted. Maybe you were in the stage of denial where you thought that you just needed to get used to it, or that is just what it is.

Me? I can’t do it anymore. I can’t live the rest of my life just working a 9-5 that I feel like I’m slowly dying in. I am also in the percentage who takes it safe. So making risky choices would definitely be a scary thing and doubt would get in my way constantly. But as I am getting older, I am learning that I refuse to live my life like this anymore. I never want to work for someone. I want to be a content creator, I want to write for a living, I want to inspire for a living. And if someone is not going to give that job to me? I am going to make it.

So welcome to my journal, this blog is my goal. My goal is to make this blog my job so I can inspire woman to know their true worth, dive into their beauty interests with me, and follow my stories with me. I am choosing to commit to a goal that will change the entire trajectory of my life.

I’ve went through so much during the pandemic. It happened to not be directly related to how the pandemic affected the world, but it has changed my entire life. These past two years, I was truly challenged by who I am as a person, who I see myself as, where I stand as a human being when things get hard. I have always been challenged in life. But for some reason, this past year was it. This past year said “are you sure you claim to be who you are? Or are you just who you want to be?” And I am proud to say I came out to be myself and even more than I saw myself to be. I am going to spend my life just doing things that fill my soul, and this blog is everything that fills my soul. And this year is the year I will commit to it.

You are exactly what you need yourself to be. Not what your family needs you to be, not what your friends need you to be, nor your community. You have one life, and every year we make goals to achieve in our lifetime but many times we fail to fulfill them. You have so much potential in what YOU were meant to do. In the things that fill YOUR heart. Not someone else’s heart. This year, think about what fills your heart. What makes you happy, what is the last thing you remember that makes you excited about like, excited to explore more, excited to just be? And just strive for what makes you love life. You are the only person living your life. Why have other people control it just for their approval and opinion of you? It is just not worth your time. Precious days wasted when you could be dancing in the rain, singing in a community theater, becoming a content creator, inspiring people to strive for what makes them feel alive.

So for this new 2022 year, I challenge you to find what makes you feel alive, and dig your heels deep in the things that give you joy. And run with it. You only fail when you choose not to get back up again.

You may ask “How do I even know what makes me feel alive?”

I have been there, and felt purposeless in life. It was very difficult to get out. But a few things helped me find my way.

  1. Think about things in your youth that used to get you excited. When you had to responsibilities. Was it sports? Was it theater? Music? Find a community that enjoys the things that you do. You don’t have to make money in your interest to be happy in your life. Start with the small things.
  1. Give yourself new experiences to find out what you like. I had low self confidence. But I just started doing things. I started hanging out with people, I played video games I never played until I got good at it. I did singing lessons as an adult even though I had no where to sing and I was scared to do a lesson. I auditioned for a musical. No, I didn’t get to do the musical because of other engagements, but the experience of going to a place with random people in a community that I never experienced, gave me a little sight to everything I could be missing.
  1. Start a side hustle. Give yourself some kind of goal, mission. Why not? What, you waste time if it doesn’t succeed? Or you learn what it feels to pursue something you love even though you may never get a return. How to journey and learn a new level of persistence.
  1. Spartan races. I will say this is more direct rather than the other options that I have given you, but honestly, everyone can benefit from exercising, Spartan races are pretty fun, gives you a drive, and it can start inspiring you to think about other things you can achieve, if not athleticism.

I hope you are able to come through this journey with me. I may or may not inspire you to follow what fulfills your heart and fill your life with what brings you joy and inspiration.